Yesterday was one of the days that leaves a lasting impression on your hearts. Our little friend and loved one Oliva Culpepper went to be with Jesus. The long battle is over and she is now victorious with Christ our Lord. And yet David and I weep. We question and we battle our own fears. After a few nights of not sleeping and much prayer I went to sleep last night around 11:00 just to wake up at 4:00am. I could not sleep and had to walk around the house looking at all our children in there beds with not a worry or care in the world. Oh, to be like a child. I started to tell God again how can this all be fair. David calls it tortureing a child for years to then take home. ( don't have any answers just ramblings) Versus started to come to my mind. The Lord is my Shepard.... Death is but a shadow....Jesus wept....He rejoices. And all of a sudden a picture of Christ was so clear in my mind. He is big enough to weep with us, comfort us and hold us. He is also big enough to rejoice with Olivia, wipe away her tears, and hold her all at the same time.
I hold this as truth. Now to walk in it and know that all things are for his glory. We just can't really walk fully in it right now.
go to caringbridge Olivia Culpepper all lower case and one word and visit her site and read the post and look at the pictures. Cindy her mom has been a rock for us and a wealth of knowledge. The princess is loved and missed.
I was so sad to hear this and her family will be in our prayers. I know that God will lead them through this valley, but I also struggle with the "whys" of the loss of a child. Not for our understanding, I know, but so hard.
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